Saturday, January 15, 2011

Dear Diary -05- (R.I.P.)

It's hard to see an innocent creature suffer badly, & u're totally helpless about it, you try your very best but still you're losing him.
Today morning you were so helpless and i watched you die, i couldn't help you by any means, i only stayed there even though i know u barely felt my existence. I'm not sad coz u died, coz i know u were suffering badly...death would mean peace for you, i'm not extremely sad coz u won't be here anymore as well coz i know that this how life is...nothing stays forever!!
But what really made me sad was watching you die, & feeling how helpless all my attempts to save you were in front of fate!
I love you and i wish u didn't have to feel all that pain in your last days...
May your soul now be resting in peace!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Dear Diary -04-

I hate to admit it in front of everyone, so as not to find people accusing me of not being thankful to God...
But I'm So Sad, Down, & Depressed
Even though i just had the best news, i was only happy for those few hours...& suddenly i feel really bad again....